part i: cannibal aquarium fish
I had a tropical aquarium with eight fish of different varieties in my room until a few days ago, when I moved the fish tank into the hallway.
There’s an automatic feeder that dispenses these pink flakes daily.
But that doesn’t seem to be enough for some.
In June, I counted around 13 or 14 fish.
part ii: three songs ranked by chaos
Siberian Breaks by MGMT
Chaos level 1: lawful complexity
This is a scrapbook of vibes. It’s magical realism at a largo tempo. It’s not so much chaotic as it is elaborate and lengthy. It makes just enough sense to capture interest but not enough sense to be boring.
Emerald Rush by Jon Hopkins
Chaos level 5: emotional entropy
This is the human condition captured in audio. It’s warm and close and far away. It’s moving in every direction at the speed of life. It’s so overwhelming — we almost wonder if we can’t handle it — but we always do.
xXXi_wud_nrvstø_ÜXXx by 100 gecs
Chaos level 9: intentional chaos
I find Zoomers fascinating and since I’ve heard that 100 gecs epitomizes this newer generation, I’ve been trying to understand it and understand why I don’t understand it. Why do I hate this but love this? It’s affirming to know I’m not the only one —
part iii: minimal/maximal
The minimalism-maximalism spectrum is one that I find myself undulating between, oftentimes teetering between the two.
I prefer nondescript clothing and have the same white/black/grey tees on rotation. My comforter is white. Sheets: beige. Curtains: beige. I go through this cycle of making my walls and spaces as blank as possible so that I have room “to think”, I tell myself.
Until the blandness overwhelms me.
I get so sick of beige and blankness.
And then I’m drawn to aesthetics like:
MUE Studio — still quite minimal. But less beige.
and then I start to itch for more.
and more.
And more recently, I’ve been very inspired by this house in Portland:
Every part of this house is a lot but it never feels like too much. It’s familiar and comfortable yet endlessly new at the same time. I’m reposed at the edge of my seat.
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And this is where I am right now:
at the edge of chaos and yearning for more.
Happy listening,
Angela
All featured songs from this year in this playlist:
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Love the exploration beyond music!